hoes before dudebros

and it’s been awhile but i still feel the same
#‘i finally made it. i made a clean getaway. and i miss you. i miss you every single day.’ #she bought those passes with every intention of using them. she really did. #but then… then she got to new haven and it was a chance #a chance to be free from that uncomfortable tightening in her chest #she’s trying to be happy and maybe she told herself that having rachel in her life as a friend was better than nothing at all #but it doesn’t seem so true anymore #she’s got to let go. and she does. she moves on. #those biweekly emails from rachel stop causing her heart to race when she sees them pop up in her inbox #and now it’s less about avoiding her but more well she’s got a new life thank you very much #and she can mostly ignore the guilt now without even trying #college is exciting and demanding with new people and new experiences to try #it’s easy to lose herself in that while calling it trying to find herself #sometimes letting go of the past is part of growing up right? #she’s feeling better now more confident so it doesn’t seem like the worst idea in the world when she gets that call from kurt #she can handle it now and be that friend to rachel that she never really could before #and she does and it’s good to see rachel happy and thriving in the city because that’s what she wanted #but then this damn wedding happens and maybe it’s just the day and the old flames coming together and the reminders of what life was #and before she managed to brush off any old tingles #but now she realizes all that moving on she did? maybe the best lie she ever told because she bought it herself #because at least in that moment she’s still the girl with the foolish heart #missing someone she’s never really had

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You can’t beat first cap hugs with your bff.